happy mothers day

no matter where i go

no matter what i do

i hope you know that i’ll remember you

i want you to see how much you mean to me

who knows who i’d be without you?

i know 22 years have passed and all of them have gone so fast

but i wrote this song so you would know

that where you are will always be home

~

georgia or tennessee it does not matter in the least

if i sailed across the sea i would come home to you

where memories are sweet and i spend days in bare feet

where the laughter is free is my home

i know 22 have passed and all of them have gone so fast

but i wrote this song so you would know

that where you are will always be home

~

youth and childhood cannot last

but we don’t have to live in the past

’cause no matter where i may go

where you are will always be home

-evan redwine

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moving

moving weekend was quite an experience. luckily, I have some amazing friends and family that went beyond the call of duty to unpack, organize, and clean everything I own. and by everything, I mean EVERYTHING! so much so that I still have not been able to find a few things that I know I packed. they are here somewhere. they are just put away in some drawer or shelf to be found when I least expect to see them. so today I was able to change light bulbs, hang a few things on the wall, run errands and even socialize with friends that came to visit. tomorrow is back to work so I am sure the progress will slow down a lot… but I am thankful for a weekend of productivity and being able to enjoy my new home with people I love here with me.

as things start to take shape, I will be posting some pictures of all the projects that have been keeping me so busy the last month. for now, here is a peak of something I have rally been enjoying looking at. a few vintage green glass jars my mom found for me at goodwill:

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signing on the line

most days i still feel like i’m 18 years old. in a good way, of course.

i delivered 2 babies at work today.

i still feel like a young intruder wondering when everyone will figure out i shouldn’t be allowed to do things on my own.

tonight i stood in the yard of my new house and watched the realtor take the for sale sign out of the yard.

tomorrow i sign on the line.

i guess i will officially be an adult. not that having a license to practice nursing didn’t qualify.

it still doesn’t feel real.

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my first place

i have had one of the craziest, most roller coaster-like experiences trying to buy a house (and i hate roller coasters. i generally run to the nearest trashcan and puke my guts out when i get off one…). while it may be a buyer’s market, that doesn’t mean it is one without drama, drama, drama.

as one place after another fell through my mom would always say “as disappointed as you are now, you will be so happy when it finally works out. you will know that the place you finally get is YOUR HOUSE.” i truly believed in each and every moment of disappointment that God is sovereign and that i would find the perfect place, preferably without monthly homeowners’ association fees. even when you believe something, its always nice to hear your parents affirm your thoughts and beliefs (that will be something i never grow out of).

its no new news to most of you that i finally got a house! its perfect. its not exactly what i was looking for, but its exactly what i need. its my house. its perfect. just perfect. its the one i waited for.

i am excited. i am nervous. i am so tired of driving to work that i am counting down the days until my commute is only 3 miles. i can’t wait to sleep in until 5:45 a.m.

i am also anxious. buying furniture helps that anxiety a little bit… it also helped that i was able to go take one more tour before they take the lock box off. the next time i see my sweet house i will officially be its owner and i will be moving all my belongings into it! did i mention how excited i am?

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“rejoice in the Lord always; again i will say, rejoice, let your reasonableness be known to everyone. the Lord is at hand; do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus.”

-philippians 4:4-7

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peanut butter cup cupcakes

peanut butter cups are one of my weaknesses.  when i saw this recipe for peanut butter peanut butter cup cupcakes with peanut butter frosting on pinterest, i couldn’t make it 24 hours without whipping up a batch (see header picture). pinterset is proving more useful than originally anticipated.

it is an easy recipe but required a little more preparation time to unwrap all the peanut butter cups. i do suggest baking them a little less than the 15-20 minutes suggested. the recipe made 24 rich, sticky, irresistible cupcakes plus a lot of left over frosting and a handful of mini cupcakes. believe me, not one went bad and had to be thrown away. this is definitely going to be one of my go-to recipes for parties for years to come.

warning: these should not be eaten without a BIG GLASS OF MILK!

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true story:

“ma’am, holding your vagina open will not help the baby come out.”

apparently “push” was too complex. glad my coworkers have a really good sense of humor.

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love without rules

this is how much God loved the world: he gave his son, his one and only son. and this is why: so that no one needs to be destroyed; by believing in him, anyone can have a whole and lasting life. God didn’t go through all the trouble of sending his son merely to point an accusing finger, telling the world how bad it was. he came to help, to put the world right again.”

john 3:16-17, the message version

i am so exposed to the love parents have for their children, both instantly at birth and also for those children that are still unborn. it is a love that causes them to lay in bed upside down, literally, for months for their child’s safety. but without the love of the gospel many of these parents have no hope. their hope is only as strong as their imperfect human nature can muster up and sustain. i have been so blessed watching a dear friend of mine walk through similar circumstances as some of the patients i see week to week on the long-term stay hallway at work. her journey is not only filled with the love of a parent, but with hope that only Jesus can bring. her honesty-filled words constantly leave me thinking. here is part of what she had to say about love for valentine’s day:

“I could have easily turned my back on the Lord when my daughter was not born into what I considered perfection.  I could have been bitter and angry. I even could have believed that God was mean and ran back in fear to what I know is not truth. I could have believed that God would have really caused damage to my child because I chose not to walk under the authority of a man.  But I didn’t and neither did [my husband].  We chose the Lord. We chose simple facts. Simple truths. God isn’t mean. He doesn’t cause us pain to get us to obey him.  He doesn’t hurt our children so that we will obey a man.  He is kind. He is smart. He is gentle.  He is love.  Love unconditional. Love without rules.  Love that goes beyond consequence. Not the love that spoils to the point of rotten but that perfect love that creates safety and hope and faith.

He is love and I chose him.

because his love is without rules, we are not destroyed. our lives are full because of him.

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